Fear and joy are at a crossroad today. I am at a crossroad today. Worse, my feet are sinking, quickly as quick can be in this slippery but unforgiving quicksand. The roads lie ahead of me and all of them seem exactly the same on the surface. Each one has an outlet for pain, for pleasure, for failure, and for success. Though the short term results may seem compelling, the long and unwinding road that seals my fate strikes more fear within me.